Rust Cohle's dialog from True Detectives

I relate a lot to this:

Well, I can’t say the job made me this way. More like bein’ this way made me right for the job. I used to think about it more, but you reach a certain age, you know who you are. Now, I live in a little room out in the country behind a bar… work four nights a week… in between I drink. And there ain’t nobody there to stop me. I know who I am. And after all these years, there’s a… victory in that.